Sunday 3 Sept 2017

Sunday 3 Sept 2017

I slept most of the day. I was up all night, not going to sleep till 0630. I had emailed my psychiatrist but haven’t heard back from her. I am in a lot of pain. My mother made spinach and pea soup again. I ate what was left of the spinach and had a bowl of the soup. Then I had some cookies.

It was raining and cold all day, a good day to sleep. I hope tomorrow I have a little more energy so I can make my cookies. Today would have been a good day to make them had I gotten some sleep at decent hours. I’m just staying up for the next hour or so to take my night meds and then go back to sleep.

My ankle is pretty bad. Everything hurts, all the bones, tendons, skin. I don’t know what to do anymore to make myself feel better. This condition is so hard. Sometimes it is the same pain but when it’s different, man, you just don’t know what the hell to do. And it’s just half my ankle/foot that hurts. It drives me crazy. I wish there was something I could do to take the pain away but the pain is different every single day so it’s hard to know what will work and what till not. It’s a waiting game. You take these pills and then have to wait for them to work all the time, if they do. Some pain I know what works but the other pains are difficult to describe so it’s difficult to know what would work best.

I feel like taking my meds now so I can lie down. Only problem with that is I could wake up before 0100 and then be up for the night. I’ve had that happen one too many times. I am just so wiped out from not sleeping. I just want to sleep and not wake up.

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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One Response to Sunday 3 Sept 2017

  1. manyofus1980 says:

    it must be so hard with different types of pain at different times. i would find that immensely hard to deal with. xx

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