PT, painsomnia, and other things

PT, painsomnia, and other things

I had a rough night sleeping because of pain. I didn’t get to sleep till around 0400. It was really bad. I had set my alarm for 8 so that I could take my blood pressure pill. I have been bad in taking it in the morning. I also set the alarm for 11 so I could possibly make something to eat before going to my PT appt. I was too tired to do that when the alarm went off. I didn’t want to get up. My ankle bone was hurting me. I really wanted to stay in but it was too late to cancel.

I played on my phone for a bit and then got dressed. It was warmer than it was yesterday, but not by much. I decided to wear sweatpants and a sweatshirt. It was too warm for the sweatshirt and I took it off when I got to the PT office. The PT wanted me to give her an update on how I was. I told her I was in pain and for the past few days, it has been really bad. She wanted to know some things and I told her. Then she went over some things she wants me to do. She gave me some exercises to do for my back. My back didn’t like it after three tries. I had written down a lot of stuff so I could remember what to do. It’s not that hard but It all depends on my pain levels. My foot/ankle were really hurting by the time I left and then waiting for the bus didn’t help. The bus I took home had a maniac driver. He was heavy on the gas. I didn’t get up until the bus stopped when it came to my stop.

I am really tired and I emailed my psychiatrist to tell her that I will be begging my PCP for a longer acting pain med or I might kill myself. I’ve had enough. I can’t go on this way. I’m going to take my night meds and go to sleep. Till tomorrow all

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality
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