Sunday Blog 29 October 2017

Sunday Blog 29 October 2017

I woke up sore and in pain. I took some pain meds and an Ativan to go back to sleep. I didn’t want to face the day at all. I was starting to feel the effects around 9 and went back to sleep. I then woke up around 1400. I went downstairs to use the bathroom and then make something to eat. I wasn’t really hungry so just had a bowl of cereal. I figured if I got hungry later, I could have the pasta I made yesterday. There was a lot of leftover.

I woke up again around 1730. I wasn’t hungry and didn’t want to get up at all. I still need to fill my med box for the week. My mother had called but I haven’t called her back to see what she wanted. She never leaves a message other than call me back. Drives me crazy.

My hands are hurting today. They feel arthritic. It’s cold and damp today so that maybe why. My ankle/foot is still hurting. For some reason, I still feel bloated, even though I haven’t eaten anything but the bowl of cereal this afternoon. I felt sick after I took my meds last night. I think I am going to decrease the Zoloft to just 50 mg and see if that helps. I’m seeing my psych tomorrow morning. I am kind of nervous seeing her. I always am when I email her my dark moods.

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G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

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