My choices are becoming clearer

My choices are becoming clearer

I thought my PCP was understanding in how I was using my medication. He was taking notes on how I was using it and I thought he was okay with it. As what I am using right now is not the count that can last me the 28 days, I am frequently running low on meds by the time of my next refill. I sent him an email saying that I would like a count increase and that is when he says he can’t do it. Fucker! I feel so damn upset that yet another doc is refusing to help me with my pain. It is making suicide a lot easier to pull off.

I was really cold, again, today. I took a nap after made some breakfast/lunch. I had made coffee but it didn’t help to warm me or keep me awake. I was again up in the middle of the night and had shit sleep. I woke up feeling really hot and sweaty. I was having a dream about some female actresses that was just weird. I woke up and my foot and ankle were throbbing. I missed my dose because I was sleeping. I took a pill when I got up. Now I am cold again.

I’m going back to bed soon. I am going to find my will tomorrow and make some changes. I am also going to leave a note for my family saying that they should consider suing my PCP’s office for their neglect of my pain. I hate to bring the law into this but malpractice is malpractice. I am not getting the level of care that I need and am just being blown off.

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G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

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