Category: Bipolar Disorder

Another Sleepy Sunday

I woke up in pain after sleeping for about 7 hours. I fell asleep around 3 am. I made breakfast and was going to make coffee but I had just taken my pain meds so there would be no point. I knew I was off back to dreamland soon enough. I fell back asleep just as the Pats game was starting.

My mother called me to make dinner. I said okay and rolled over back to sleep. She called me about 45 minutes later saying it was done. Oops. I had dinner and then took a shower hoping it would wake me up a little bit. My brother in law finally installed the new heater so I didn’t freeze when I took my shower. It was nice.

I saved my therapist a piece of the delicious cake I made yesterday. I shared it with my family last night and they loved it. So there is just enough for me to eat over the next few days. I have gained a few pounds and I don’t care. I weighed myself before I took a shower. I wasn’t happy but I don’t care. I will have cake dammit! I know I should be watching what I have been eating but lately, any food intake I have is a miracle because I just can’t find the energy sometimes to cook.

I have been thinking of calling Nutrisystem and see how much it would be to get on their program. It’s a weight loss program and the food looks decent. I don’t know if it really is or not and I know the food is separate. I had a friend that went on it but she never really did it or ate the food. I just know if I can get the weight off, I can keep it off. But I have never been good at keeping track of calories and such. I hope it isn’t expensive and easy to manage.

With me taking all these pain meds, I am really backed up. I can’t remember the last time I went, which isn’t good. I have been taking senna but it doesn’t seem to be enough. If I didn’t have to go out tomorrow, I would take some fiber pills. Or I might delay my trip into downtown for another day. I’m not feeling that uncomfortable but I know I need to go before it’s like week of not going. Sucks when you have a nerve injury and need stuff to help push things along. I hate it. Then when I am more regular, I have loose stools and those are wicked fun because they lead to accidents.

I feel really exhausted even though I slept for most of the day. Staying up till 0300 for the past three nights have not been good. I try to settle down for bed before midnight but it never works out that way because of fucking pain. I take my night meds usually between 8-9 pm. The only time that varies is if I am out, which is rare. So I should be asleep by 2300, theoretically.

My crayons came today. I am so excited that I got an adult coloring book and crayons. But I am not going to use it until I change my sheets. That is one goal that has to happen. I have to clean off my bed, which I was hoping to do today but my ankle had other plans. I would ask one of my sisters to help me but they always want me to clean my entire room rather than focus on the one thing that I have control over (changing my bedding). So rather than listen to them bitch, I don’t ask. And despite me sleeping all fucking day, my damn ankle is not grateful. It’s still hurting me. Going to be a long night!