Frustrating Sunday
I woke up in a funk. I didn’t feel really well but still wanted to go food shopping. I had some coffee and then rested a little bit before getting dressed. I went to the store and within twenty minutes, my back started cramping up. I just gathered things that were on the top of my head rather than look at my list. There was stuff I forgot but I will be going back sometime this week with my cousin. I came home from shopping exhausted and in pain. I can’t believe the fatigue I felt. I got a headache and it is really bad. It turned into a migraine. I took some meds for it but it still hasn’t helped yet. I am so tired that I can’t rest. It is like I am too over tired to rest. I hate when I get this way.
My mother will be making hamburgers for supper with the meat I bought. I am glad because I don’t think I can manage making dinner. I bought frozen dinners. But I forgot ice cream. I hate that I did. I have been in some kind of brain fog the past few days. I don’t know if it is because of the Latuda or not. I just feel spacy and forget things. I feel like I am dissociated but I really haven’t lost track of time or anything. I just forgot what I have been doing. Like yesterday morning I wrote a blog after I had breakfast. I cannot tell you what the blog was about because I forgot I wrote it. I just remember that I finished it around noon time and then I took a nap. I am so frustrated that I am so spacy.
I am also frustrated that I have no stamina to do food shopping. I am totally wiped out from the little shopping I did. My back hates me right now and there is nothing I can do about it. I have a killer headache. I feel so low it isn’t funny. I don’t think I am ever going to have the stamina I had before surgery back in March. It is driving me crazy and I don’t know if things will get better. I hope that when I start PT that somethings do get better but I know it will be a while before I see any progress.
I have such tension in my neck and shoulders today. It really hurts when I turn my neck. My shoulders feel so heavy. It is creating so much tension in my neck that it is making my headache worse. I woke up like this so maybe it was the way I slept. I just know that it is annoying the fuck out of me. Today is just not a good day. Tomorrow I plan on going to the pharmacy to get my flu shot. Once I get it, I need to let my pcp know so they can update my records. I just hope I don’t get sick after I get it. That will really suck.
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