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aliens are attacking us

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging

I can’t stay silent anymore. It’s burning a hole in my stomach. There are aliens in the heads of the ISIS people that are controlling them to do bad things. I have known this for a long time now, at least a year. I have been afraid of speaking up because I know no one will believe me. But it’s true. They want to control the world, like they did back in Egyptian times. The aliens have come back with a vengeance because they want us to bow down to them. They are now gods. When the aliens take over the bodies of humans, they become a god. That is why they kill people who go against their way of thinking. We are being attacked by aliens and their counterparts, the Jaffa. The Jaffa does what the aliens want them to do. I don’t know how many have been infected with the parasite that controls them. But there has to be at least one leader that is the head of the group. He will decide who gets to be the surrogate for these aliens and the aliens that are not yet fully formed. They need human hosts. I think that is why they take children so the not so fully formed aliens can be surrogates with the children. They grow up with the aliens inside them to control them.

I don’t know when this invasion occurred. But these are true. The only reason they have found evidence of the aliens is because once the host is dead, they shrivel up and die. There are no markings of the aliens being in the host. That would be too obvious. The aliens want power over the humans, to make them slaves and bow down to their religion. I don’t know what their religion is but it is not one that is part of the human race. Those that refuse to endorse this religion get killed on the spot. There are no second chances with these people. You either fight with them or against them. It is sad that no one but me has deciphered this. I think the intelligence agencies have been keeping it a secret because they don’t want the public to know. But I am telling you now, this is what is going on. They must be stopped. I know that it is true. The only way to save the world from being controlled by aliens is killing them. There are no other measures to take. Thankfully, bullets and bombs kill these beasts. I wish there was a way to negotiate with them but they are not negotiable aliens.

I have said too much. This is all true. Believe what you will.

Quote of the Day 16 Nov 2015

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, depression, mental disorders, mental illness, mood disorders, psychache, Quotes

Individuals have different thresholds for enduring or tolerating pain; thus the individual’s decision not to bear the pain-the threshold for enduring it-is also directly relevant. Edwin Shneidman, Suicide as Psychache

Sunday Ramblings

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Been trying to fix the setting on my word doc for the past half hour to no avail. I think the latest update screwed the settings because things are different and it’s annoying the crap out of me. But when I view via print preview, things are normal. As long as my margins are ok on that view, I am happy. I just hope it doesn’t mess with my book settings. That would be awful.

I put a status up on Facebook that I thought was hysterical and no one thought it was. They just called my mother right. Not the response I was looking for. I had some cookies after breakfast because I was still hungry. My mother asked if they were still soft as she left them uncovered. I told her she should cover them and then she told me no as she doesn’t want them to get sweaty. I nearly choked on the cookie. It was the funniest thing I ever heard. I am still laughing about it.

My mother is cleaning the bathroom today. I feel bad I can’t help her because my back is hurting me and so is my ankle. My mother noticed I was hurting as I was hunched over as I prepared my breakfast. I couldn’t straighten out. The change in temperature always gets me. It went from the 50s to the 30s overnight. Not good. It has warmed up to about 50 degrees but the temp still is jumping and falling during the day and my back cannot take it. It just wrecks havoc on my pain levels.

Because my pain levels are bad today, there is no way that I could go to Stop and Shop to buy some Powerade. I am running low. I will try and go tomorrow. I have been slowly accumulating my shopping list for the big shopping. I couldn’t get groceries last month because my laptop needed to get fixed. I am hoping this month I can get what I need as I am low on stuff and I need to get some stuff for Turkey day. My mother didn’t buy my butternut squash. I love squash. I think we are having it over my middle sister’s house. I have no idea how we are going to carry the turkey and the chicken over there. She’s a half block away from our house. I have no idea who is doing what. I know I won’t be cooking because I don’t cook. Most I can do it pop a pie in the oven and go by the instructions. I hope my brother in law got the pumpkin pie and makes it correctly this time. Last time he made it, it came out like soup. I miss buying pies at the hospital I worked at. I always bought a pumpkin and apple pies. They were really good. Maybe I will have dinner with my friend one night just so I can have pie.

I have been in a depressed mood since I can’t do anything today. Even sitting typing this is hurting my back. I took an NSAID today but it hasn’t helped. I would take a pain pill but I really don’t want to sleep. I did some reading before I had lunch. I am not really liking this book. It’s just stuff that I already knew but the author’s take on it is very negative. I have never read a book that was written like this. Usually history books have an unbiased tone to it. Not this one. And the author focuses on the inaptitude of Lincoln while not focusing on the stupidity and laziness of McClellan, in my opinion. This is all in the first chapter I read. I am definitely going to do a review on this book because it is so terrible. No wonder the book was marked 50% off.

I made some room on my Tivo by deleting some programs that I already watched but was saving for some reason. One program was the 2013 World Series. It killed me to delete it but there was no way for me to transfer it to another media because the TiVo is just too old. I don’t have a DVD recorder. I had bought one but couldn’t figure out how to get it set up. I tried every combination of connecting the wires, buying converter things, and I still couldn’t get the fucker to work. So I gave it away to someone who could. A waste of money but a least it’s being used and not collecting dust in my house. I am just not good with stuff like that.

I didn’t sleep well last night. I woke up around 0230 and went back to sleep around 0430, only to wake up again around 0745. I am so tired. I would nap but I am so afraid of making my sleeping pattern worse. Being in pain is not helping the napping cause because there is nothing more I rather do than take a couple of pain meds and sleep. I have such a messed up schedule I am surprised I can function. I think that is part of the reason I feel depressed is because my sleep is awful. I either stay up late, wake up really early and stay up all day and night, or I don’t sleep at all. I never have a day where I am sleeping all day. I am jealous of the people that can do this, or at least have a straight 6+ hours of sleep.

I have been listening to Taylor Swift today. I was listening to Lady Antebellum but I got tired of listening to them, only because my stupid shuffler would repeat the same three songs in a row, or play the same song twice in a row. I love their music but I also like variety. It would be one thing if I put it on repeat but I didn’t. One of their songs I found on YouTube. I started crying when I heard it because I think it was the last song they recorded as a group. Supposedly, the group broke up a few weeks ago. Their lead singer, Charles Kelley is performing solo now and so is the other singer Hillary Scott. I don’t know what Dave is going to do. I am so upset by this break up because they were my favorite group.

I did some editing this morning on the new story that I wrote. I didn’t write anything new because I didn’t feel inspired. I am glad I read through some of it because there were errors and words that were just wrong. I have no idea what I was thinking when I wrote it but it must have made sense at that time.

Quote of the Day 15 Nov 2015

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, mental disorders, mental illness, mood disorders, psychache, Quotes, suicidality, suicide

From the view of psychological factors in suicide, the key element in every case is psychological pain; psychache. All affective states (such as rage, hostility, depression, shame, guilt, affectiveness, hopelessness, etc.) are relevant to suicide only as they relate to unbearable psychological pain. If, for example, feeling guilty or depressed or having a bad conscience or an overwhelming unconscious rage makes one suicidal, it does so because it is painful. No psychache, no suicide. Edwin Shneidman, Suicide as Psychache