Category: chronic physical pain

A Chilly Sunday

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

A Chilly Sunday

I woke up not in the best of moods. I wasn’t in pain, yet, but just had disturbing dreams that left me wondering what they were about. Then someone sent me a message just to chat and pissed me off because it was so damn early in the morning. Sorry but I am usually not up at 0630! When I did get up, I had to go to the bathroom. My mother was in it so I had to wait. More grumpiness ensued. My mother had the tea kettle on and it went off while she was in the bathroom. After I finished doing what I was doing, I turned off the kettle and decided to make some coffee. I didn’t feel like eating yet. I didn’t really want the coffee but the water was hot so figured what the hell.

Came back to my room with my coffee that wasn’t very good and started reading. I had to charge my phone because I left it off during the night. I hate when I do that. But I was so tired last night, I just wanted to sleep.

The book I am reading is called “Dark Tide”. It’s about the molasses flood that occurred in Boston in 1919. There was plenty of warnings before the giant tank collapsed but of course, upper management didn’t heed the warnings and just plainly ignored them. This was all before the tank actually collapsed. I had heard about the flood but didn’t know much about it until now. It’s all interesting to me, learning about this. The author is great and makes it interesting. I already read two chapters and plan on reading a few more before this evening. I’d like to get through this book this week. I have five books I need to finish before the end of the month for my reading challenge. I don’t know if I will be able to do it, but I will try.

A high school friend started a 21 day liquid diet. It sounds pretty simple but the stuff is wicked expensive. I am going to try it to see if I can actually lose weight and keep it off. The goal is to be within 1,000 calories/day range, which will be perfect for me as I am so inactive. I am doing some research on it before I start it, though I just bought some high protein shakes. I plan on getting more at the vitamin shoppe when I get paid as waiting by mail might be a problem, if I order online. And if I don’t like it, then I am stuck with the stuff. My brother in law has a nutribullet so I can use that for making shakes if I can get a good recipe. I know most of it will be trial and error.

I had to go to the basement freezer for some things. Before I start my diet, I want to make my pumpkin cake. I was glad I went because there was a tub of cool whip. YAY! So now I can make it tomorrow. The trip to the basement and helping my mother around the house caused my ankle to flare up. I had my pizza and am now resting my ankle for the rest of the day.

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow morning. I don’t know if I will go to Starbucks afterwards or just come home and make the cake. I guess it will depend on how much I want espresso. I need to take a shower some time either tonight or before my appointment. I have to wait for the flare to calm down a little bit before I can stand long enough for a shower. I decided to try and increase my baclofen to twice a day to see if it helps with the pain. I am supposed to take it three times a day but I am really bad at taking meds during the morning. That is why I have an app to remind me to take my blood pressure pill otherwise, I’d just be taking it once a day, which would not be helping my blood pressure.

It’s supposed to snow later this evening and into tomorrow. I hope that by the time my appointment rolls around, it has stopped and the roads are somewhat clear. I have to go up an incline sidewalk to get to the office building. It will be harder in the snow.

Saturday Blog 71

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Saturday Blog 71

I have been in bed all day due to pain. My mother forced me to wake up around 1000 because the vacuum cleaner repair guy was coming. She wasn’t feeling well and had to lie down. Luckily, I didn’t have to wait too long for the guy and then I went back to sleep. Despite me being in bed all day, the pain persisted. I had a few weird dreams, one of which was about my therapist. All I know is, I called her and she called me a bitch. That is all I remember.

I didn’t eat anything because I haven’t been out of bed. When I did get up, I had some eggplant my mother made and then some cookies. I didn’t care for anything else. I plan on taking my meds soon, even though it’s early. I don’t care. I just want to sleep so I am not in pain.

While I was reading Twitter today, it was learned that Russia interfered with the election to get their man elected. Just wonderful. I really hope they try him for treason and void the election results to give it to HRC. But I know I am dreaming.

round the clock pain

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Round the clock pain

Since early this morning, I have been in pain. I have diligently been taking my pain meds around the clock. The only time I wasn’t in pain was a brief window between 1900 and 2030. Then I started feeling zaps and the pain returned.

I had a light supper, just a bowl of soup. It was more water than a broth. Then I had some cookies and felt satisfied. A couple hours later, I started to feel bloated. I hadn’t had anything to eat or drink so I didn’t know why this was. My niece called me and said she had some tiramisu for me so I went downstairs to have it. BIG mistake. The bloating got worse and my stomach has been off kilter the past few hours. I thought it might be gas so I took some Mylanta. It helped some but not all. Then my pain spiked. Now I don’t think I can get to sleep despite being tired. I took my fourth dose of pain pills for the day, which is unusual as I usually only need three. But the pain is bad.

While I was waiting for the Mylanta to work, I decided to do some reading. I didn’t want to read as I finished the Lincoln Boys and thought I was done. But I left off in the middle of the chapter and I hate that so I decided to finish just that chapter. I am now reading “Dark Tide”. It’s about the molasses flood that happened in Boston in 1919. I find Boston’s history interesting.

I am very surprised that despite taking my pain meds, I didn’t nap once during the entire day. Usually, I sleep all day. Maybe my psychiatrist is right and I am getting more used to the meds than I thought I was. I didn’t think it was going to happen to me but it has, much to my dismay.

things accomplished today

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Things accomplished today

I woke up in pain, again, so I took my pain meds. I fought off the drowsiness by making breakfast and coffee. I didn’t feel like going to the Square today as I wanted pizza for lunch. I made a deal with myself that if I went to the post office, I could get pizza for lunch. The pain had calmed down some by the time lunchtime rolled around so I made it to the post office and then got half a box of pizza. It was cheaper that way than getting two slices. My niece texted me saying that she needed a nip so I went to the liquor store after I picked up the pizza. I also checked my numbers. Yesterday, something was telling me to play my father’s numbers so I played. I won $3 so I played again for tonight’s drawing.

I came home and ate the pizza, all of it. It was good and I was hungry. I guess I won’t have supper tonight. I went back to my room and my mother called me. She left her insulin down my aunt’s house and wanted me to go get it. So I put my sneakers on and walked down the street, hoping my ankle didn’t fail on me because I didn’t carry my cane nor was I wearing the AFO. Now my ankle and foot really hate me. Before I rested, I emptied the barrels in my room into a trash bag. I had to empty them because they were almost overflowing. After I did that, I took two more pain pills and am now resting my damn foot. The same area that flared up last night is still hurting me today.

I didn’t change my sheets like I wanted to but at least I accomplished the other things. I will try and change them tomorrow if my pain isn’t too bad, and I get some sleep. The Neurontin really helped me sleep most of the night last night. But I had to take a huge dose of it. I think that is why I am so hungry today. Think I am going to have some golden Oreos soon. My sweet tooth is craving something sweet.

I was glad that the dentist office called in the afternoon and not in the morning like I thought they were going to. I have an appointment Monday for a cleaning. I have been better at brushing my teeth since my last visit so that is good. I hope I have no cavities. That will suck.

I might make my pumpkin cake this weekend. I know I will be the only one eating it but I don’t care. I like baking. I just hope I have some cool whip. Otherwise, I won’t be able to make it. That would be sad. I have been wanting to make this cake for a while now. I also need to have room in the fridge for it because it needs to be refrigerated.