A dear friend of mine on twitter made this meme and I had to share it with you all. It’s a quote from my new book, Darkness Always Wins.
Hope you will get a copy. It’s a really interesting book that I wrote about mental illness, depression, and my psychosis.
yes, of course
Whats your least favourite movie?
Horror or suspense movies that scare me.
What do you drink with dinner?
Soda
What is your favorite food?
Pizza
what movie could you watch over and over and still love?
Money pit
Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
No
When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
Few weeks ago
Favourite kind of sandwich?
Grilled cheese
Best thing to eat for breakfast?
Scrambled eggs with cheese
What is your usual bedtime?
Don’t have one
Are you lazy?
Yes
How many languages can you speak?
1
Do you sing in the shower?
No
Is Christmas stressful?
Yes
Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
Cardiologist
Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes.
Wear slippers?
Yes
Ever been in love?
Yes.
Who would you like to see in concert?
Mary Chapin Carpenter
Hot tea or cold tea?
Hot tea.
Tea or coffee?
Coffee
Ever had plastic surgery?
No
Do you want to get married?
Maybe
Do you want kids?
No
Whats your favourite colour?
Blue
Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes
Things you cannot leave the house without?
My phone and keys
Do you drink energy drinks?
No
Do you drink juice?
Yes
Do you eat fries with a fork?
No
Any phobias?
Yes
What is your middle name?
Don’t have one
What was favorite subject at school?
Math
What is your favorite drink?
Coffee
What is your favorite song at the moment?
Too many to name one
What is the last thing you bought?
Protein bars
How many siblings do you have?
2 sisters
When was the last time you cried?
Christmas
Favourite TV shows?
Don’t watch tv anymore
PC or Mac? Pc
What phone do you have?
Galaxy S5
How tall are you?
5’1″
Can you cook?
Yes, but I’d rather bake
Friday Feeling
I woke up in a good mood. I made breakfast and then waited an hour for the next bus to the Square. I wrote in my journal and only had 4 shots of espresso as 5 was giving me anxiety. After I wrote and finished my coffee, I went to my PCP’s office to pick up my prescription and then went to the pharmacy. I wanted a burrito but I was tired and didn’t feel like walking over.
When I came home, I checked to see if fricken UPS delivered the stupid replacement phone so I could turn my phone on. It did and I was thankful. Then I spent an hour trying to get my phone turned on. It took me I don’t know how many tries with my insurance company and Sprint. They were both piggy backing each other. I was getting so annoyed. Then I started getting hungry and I was even more agitated. I didn’t get anywhere. I have to wait 24 hours for my phone to be turned back on. I asked if it would still work because tomorrow is Saturday and I really don’t want to wait till Tuesday. There will be hell to pay if I have to wait till then.
My proof came in and it looks okay. I have one blank page and the title page is not on the side I want it but it’s okay. I am not going to be fussy about it because trying to fix it might screw up the rest of the book. If you would like to purchase it the link is
It’s available as a paperback and Kindle. I am really excited about this. I wish I could let my therapist know about it but my damn phone is off and I can’t text her. I am so annoyed. I hate not having text availability.
Ankle so far hasn’t been too much trouble. I guess yesterday’s hell was because of the weather. It was kind of icy today but the sun melted most of it in places. I was scared of black ice as I was walking home from Walgreens because the lighting is poor on the side street I need to go down. But it wasn’t too bad. I didn’t wear my brace because it was a short walk and I didn’t want to put the contraption on for a block and a half. It was really cold though, with the wind it brought the temps down even colder after the sun went down. I went after the sun went down because my prescription had a long wait and I didn’t want to wait. But I needed my meds so I went later.
I turned the heat on to less than 70 and my room is a sauna. I didn’t bother to put on PJs. I am too hot for them. I got to turn the ceiling fan because I feel like I am going to go into heat exhaustion soon. I had to turn the heat up because my mother is sick and she felt cold. The house was cold as I turned the heat down last night when she went to bed. I bought her some cold medicine. I hope it makes her feel better. She really isn’t feeling well and I just worry. She didn’t eat her supper. I hope she didn’t give herself her insulin because that won’t be good. I really don’t want to call an ambulance because her sugar tanks. I am already on edge because I know a virus can fluctuate sugar levels. And I can’t fucking call her because my phone is useless so I need to go downstairs to check on her.
Painful Boxing Day
I live in the States so we don’t celebrate Boxing day but I have some international readers that do so Happy Boxing day!
My day has not been a good one. I went to sleep between 0330 and 0400 because pain was keeping me up. When I woke up around noon, the pain was still there. I took my meds and had some breakfast. My mother called to have me put the pies in the fridge. They had been on our back porch but the sun was out and it can quickly heat up the space, even if it is freezing out. I delved into the chocolate cream pie that I love so much. I had it after I had supper, too. I just eat it until it is gone.
The pain meds weren’t working for me so around 1400, I took my strong pain pill and that knocked me out. I slept for a few hours. I wasn’t in the mood to eat anything but pie but my brother-in-law made some beef and potatoes so I had that. It was really good. I still feel like shit and my ankle is killing me. I should have told my sister to get me a chainsaw for Christmas instead of a pizza stone. I had emailed my psychiatrist during one of the trips I wasn’t sleeping. I had tried four times to sleep last night and it took the fourth for me to finally crash. I thought I would hear back from her but I haven’t. Maybe she hasn’t read her email yet. She is on vacation.
I have some exciting news, I plan on publishing my book sometime this week. I was hoping to work on it today but it didn’t happen. I am meeting a friend tomorrow for coffee in Boston so I don’t think I will be able to work on it tomorrow either. It will get done. I just have a few pages of “fluff” to write. I will have a dedication page and then maybe an acknowledgement page. I am not sure. I know I want to publish the suicide hotlines so they are there should someone need them. I just don’t know if I should put them in the beginning of the book or the end. I think the end will be better.
I just hope that I don’t have formatting issues like I did my first book. Man, what nightmare that was. This time I used the template that Amazon gave out and I hope there are no glitches. I hope it has no blank pages. I have tried my best to make sure this hasn’t happened. So we’ll see.
Now I got to fill my pill box and take my meds. I meant to do it earlier today but I was so damn sleepy. I feel like I can go back to bed again. I hope I do and sleep till at least 8 or 9 tomorrow morning. I need to shower and then get dressed to meet my darling friend. I hope she isn’t late.
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