Being really tired because of chronic pain
Friday night, I was up really late because the Sox game went into historic extra innings. By 330 am, the game was still going on. It was the top of the 18th inning and I decided to go to bed. I was in pain and needed sleep. The Dodgers ended up winning in the bottom of the 18th. It was the longest game in the history of World Series playoffs. I didn’t wake up until after 1500 yesterday. I had sort woke up but I looked at the time and said five more minutes and never got up. My mother never called me (I wouldn’t hear her ring anyways as I had do not disturb on).
I got up and had something to eat. I just had some corn muffins that I bought. That was all I wanted. Then I went back to my room. I was still groggy so I didn’t want to write a blog. I didn’t know if I was going to listen to the game as the stadium was really loud and the announcers were pissing me off. Lou had traveled to LA and OMG was so annoying. I stayed up for about 6 innings I think, I couldn’t keep track of the game because all the announcers were talking bullshit instead of calling the game. Who was warming up, the pitch count of the pitcher, whether Cora was going to bring in another pitcher, all this shit rather than balls and strikes. So When the Dodgers scored their first run and then E-Rod gave up a 3 run shot, I thought the game was over. I wasn’t going to listen to it anymore. Also my cousin was texting me about how the first 4 batters were like 0 for 39 or something like that. I don’t care as long as they are in the game! They will hit once they find their groove. I went to bed. I felt bad about doing so but I was tired, my foot exploded and I just couldn’t take the negativity anymore.
I woke up around 3 am today. We won 9-6! I was so fucking happy. This makes the series 3-1. One more Sox win and we win the whole thing. Tonight’s game is so damn important and I am not going to miss it!! But I thought I would write a blog as it has been two days since I wrote one. I just haven’t been in the mood to write. I am going to have pancakes and coffee later. I really haven’t eaten since Friday. I made my wings and they came out so damn good. I might make a brownie recipe today. I am not sure though. It has beets in it and I have to figure out how many beets is equivalent to what is called for. I was supposed to get whole beets and but instead I got sliced beets. UGH! I am so annoyed. My friend said they were good. She and her husband liked it. So I think it should be good. I love brownies anyways. I have never had them with beets, but we shall see.
I also got really angry with my cousin with bipolar disorder. I was trying to nap before the game and right when I was ready to doze off, he calls me. I didn’t answer as I didn’t want to talk to him. He left me a ridiculous message about how he thinks he saw me at the bus stop but he was going to work so he couldn’t stop, like if he sees me at the bus stop he HAS to take me to where ever I am going. I like the gesture but he doesn’t have to do this. His brother doesn’t do this, my uncle certainly doesn’t, so why should he? He said he couldn’t bring me anyways as he was running late. UGH so why are you telling me this?? Then he tells me he “has been calling me.” No he hasn’t. There is this thing on my phone called a log and it would tell me if you called. I haven’t heard from you in a month or more. So stop lying. Nothing I hate worse than a liar. And I am sure the whole seeing me at the bus stop is a lie too. He thinks he can get away with it and when I bring it up to him, he says why haven’t I called him. Fuck you, buddy. I have enough shit going on in my life that I don’t need to hear your lies. So I am not going to return his call. Soon after he got my voicemail and left me the phony message, he called my mother asking where I was. Jerk. That is what he does. He will call me, asking about her and then call her asking about me. Loser he is. That just drives me fucking crazy.
I took some Miralax today because it has been a while since I last went. I was going good for a while and then nothing. I don’t know why. I just hope it works before the game because I don’t want to be shitting while the game is going on! HAHA. I am also really excited because this is another T dose week. I can’t wait till Wednesday. There are already some changes to my face and I love it. I can’t wait for more to come.