Father’s day 2020
I had a good father’s day despite being in pain. My sister made yummy shrimp scampi and my other sister made dessert. I haven’t had it yet. I probably will later when it comes upstairs. I don’t feel like going downstairs again. My back is bothering me big time and is spasming. I wanted to empty my recycles today but never got around to do it. I guess there is always tomorrow for this job. I also need to throw out my trash.
I need to change my sheets this week. It is overdue for changing. I just have been lazy trying to clear off my bed so I can change them. I have a clean set so soon as I strip the bed, I can get them on again. I just haven’t decided if I am going to use the same bedding or change it to different blankets. I usually do. I think I will. So now it is just a matter of clearing off the bed and then stripping it. I just hope I can do it on my own without help.
I weighed myself today and much to my surprise, I lost five pounds. Only twenty-five more to go. I wish I knew how I did it so I can do it again. I think eating cereal is one way of keeping the pounds off. I haven’t lost my appetite so this was just a matter of how many calories I ate during the day. I have been having at least two meals a day and no snacking in between.
It is still hot as fuck out. I don’t know when this heat wave is going to stop. I wish it would already. I was able to shower ok and even though I felt tired afterwards, I didn’t go to sleep. I am really tired now but I just took my night meds so hopefully I will sleep soon. I want to make sure I am up before 11 tomorrow so I can make coffee before therapy. I am going to ask my therapist a serious question and hope she doesn’t laugh at me. I am always afraid of her laughing at me because I feel stupid with my questions. I just hope she answers my question without asking another question with it. I rather her answer then ask a question rather than question then answer it. Reading Linehan’s memoir has helped solidify my resolve to ask this question even though I know it is stupid.
I am so tired. I am going to try and go to bed around 2100. I think I will cath myself then and then go to bed. If I am not really sleepy or too anxious to sleep, I will write in my journal or read the memoir book for a bit. I just hope I don’t get the overtireds because that will not be good and I won’t be able to sleep right away once I am at that point. I will take a melatonin and see if that helps. I had to take some Benadryl tonight because my sister made some food with ginger and I had some. She tells me this after I eat it. I swear sometimes I think she is trying to kill me. I am highly allergic to ginger.