Happy New Year 2021

Happy New Year 2021

Happy New Year to all my readers! Hope you rang in the year peacefully. I was sleeping. I slept all day yesterday. I was so tired. I don’t make any resolutions but I am keeping a record of books that I read. I didn’t do good for reading 21 books last year. I only read 16. I can only try and do better this year.

My shoulder has been killing me the last few days and is causing neck spasms. Because I have had to take Zanaflex, I have been sleepy. The magnesium doesn’t seem to help the neck spasms. I have been taking my breakthrough med and Tylenol to control the pain. It really sucks that nothing seems to set it off. It just hurts on its own. I had trouble sleeping during the night because the pain kept waking me up. I have interrupted sleep during the night. It really sucks.

I have been feeling depressed. Things have just been off with me and I can’t seem to figure things out. I have one more week of the partial program. It has been helpful but I don’t think staying longer will be useful. I will talk to my therapist about it on Monday. I am glad she will be back in the office. I missed her. We have a lot to talk about with my upcoming gyn appointment. It is a pre op exam for my hysterectomy. I don’t know if I will be having it because of the care my mother needs and me not being able to do anything for 6 weeks will just piss off my sisters. I am having my doubts about the surgery anyway so I don’t mind putting it off. I do want to talk to her about any impact the surgery will have on my bladder. I don’t want more problems than I already have. I still have to have the urodynamic testing done. I am not ready mentally for that. I wish it wasn’t such an invasive test.

I am going to have to restart my laptop because my power icon isn’t showing on the taskbar like it is supposed to. UGH. I hate having to restart the laptop. I have to decide what to do with my beard. It is getting long and irritating. I am not good at trimming it so I might just shave it off. I don’t know. I need to shower. I don’t remember the last time I showered so it will be good to take one. I just hope my back doesn’t flare up. It has been acting up a lot lately and I don’t know why. The weather has been constant cold so I don’t know.

My sister has bought a baby monitor so we can look after my mother during the night. I just connected to it. It is pretty cool and the picture quality is good. My mother is still weak but is getting better each day. It has been hard seeing her like this. She is on oxygen and doesn’t breathe right with it. She mostly has been breathing in through her mouth, which doesn’t do the oxygen much good.

I am tired and have a late afternoon grocery delivery. I hope my nephew can help me with it.