Month: December 2017

Christmas Eve 2017

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Christmas Eve 2017

I didn’t sleep well so woke up around 1330 to take meds. I stayed in bed for another 45 minutes. The new body pillow my sister got me is not as great as I thought it would be. Half of it was on the floor when I woke up and it was hard moving about in bed because it is so large. I’m trying to make do with it, though. My regular pillow that likes to sneak to the nightstand, nearly knocked things off. UGH. I placed in my “office” side of the bed.

I decided to shower before my foot and/or ankle hurt too bad. I had a bowl of cereal first as I was hungry and then took a shower. My foot hurt afterwards but it wasn’t bad. My mother had started frying fish when I was in the shower. I am glad I closed my bedroom door to block some of the smell. I am glad I took a shower. I then went on twitter and facebook. I browsed for a while until I felt like it was time for “lunch”. I made a turkey wrap with cranberry sauce. It was good. I wasn’t going to have the fish because it is not the kind I like. My mother was supposed to go to her sister’s for Christmas Eve but after frying, she hurt too much. I knew it was going to happen. Her back hurt her when she got up this morning. She had a hard time getting out of bed. I had gone to the bathroom and when I came back up to my room, she was just sitting on the edge of her bed. I asked if she was okay and she obviously lied and said yes.

I’m not planning on doing anything the rest of the evening except possibly watch MASH. I could use the comedy. The first 3 seasons are the funniest ones with Burns. When he left, the show kind of got more serious. I just found the DVD collection that I bought a few years ago. It some how went behind some stuff and remained hidden. I am glad I found it when looking for something else. I belong to a MASH Facebook group and whenever they post a quote or a scene, I want to watch the show all the more. I used to watch it all the time when I had my TiVo as I would record it. But I haven’t watched since I no longer watch TV since it died. Now it is just DVDs I watch.

Pats won today. The game was neck and neck, going back and forth but Brady pulled it out in the end. I really hope we make it to the playoffs. I really haven’t watched football games all season, except college football. OSU is playing in the Cotton Bowl Friday. I don’t know what channel it is on but it’s a late game. I probably will be watching it and then be up all night.

birthday 2017

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Birthday 2017

My mother made pizza for dinner. My immediate family came over for my birthday. It was nice, even if my youngest sister was being a goof the whole time. She gave me the body pillow I wanted though it is not as supportive as I thought it would be. My 2nd youngest niece painted a Winnie the Pooh bear. It was cute.

I tried making the cheesecake cookies today but the cookies didn’t come out the way they were supposed to. They are still edible and I supposed I could use the cream cheese filling as a dip of some sort for them. I was disappointed. My mother said I didn’t cook them long enough. I don’t know. They seemed okay to me.

I had some pain throughout the day. After I made the cookies, I took off my boot to relax and the pain got so bad, I cried again. I couldn’t help it. I had been walking around the kitchen doing stuff and guess it was too much for my ankle. I am hurting now as I am writing this. There just doesn’t seem to be any rhyme or reason for the pain. I don’t do anything, I hurt. I do something, I hurt. I hate this condition so much.

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strip it down

by Midnight Demon, posted in Bipolar Disorder, blogging, chronic physical pain, depression, mood disorders

Strip it down

I’m listening to Luke Bryan and this is the song that is currently playing. I couldn’t come up with a title so thought I would use the name of the song. Corny, but it works.

I went food shopping today. I didn’t get much as I didn’t have that much money on me. I just bought the bare essentials until next week when I get paid. We were out of juice and that was the important thing. Always need juice in case my mother’s sugar goes down. I got a little of this and that. Then caught the bus to the square to get an espresso. I also treated myself to a cranberry bliss bar. Those are so good. I haven’t had one in a couple years. They only come out during Christmas season. I then hurried to catch the bus home.

I wrote a pitch for my second book and submitted it to a mental health press. It will be a few weeks before I know if they will print it. I had no idea if what I did was right as I never submitted a pitch before. I was really tired after writing it up. I went to nap and then my mother called just as I was ready to drift off to sleep. I was robbed of a nap. I didn’t want to get up. I wasn’t that hungry but I went downstairs. My mother made pasta for me as I wanted some. She made asparagus and eggs. I had a little of it while the pasta was cooking. She made it really al dente. I am not a fan of al dente. I ate it and now I am super full.

It has been snowing on and off today but now it’s snowing pretty steady. It’s supposed to snow till Christmas morning. Don’t know if that will happen. We haven’t had a white Christmas in years. It would be nice.