Journal entry 15022021 1603
Having a rough day. Pain in shoulders and neck is making me suicidal. I want to text my therapist but I know she won’t respond. Fucking bugs me.
My left leg has been hurting me since last night. Hammy is killing me and I am having pain in my ankle. I’ve noticed I will get hamstring pain with this ankle pain. I’m so sick of being in pain every day I am in pain. Very depressing. I sent psychiatrist another message about increasing the citalopram. Hope he does. I should be at 60 mg right now but I am at half that dose. This doc doesn’t believe in celexa like I do. Really bothers me.
I half cleared off my bed. I just need to clear my “office” stuff. I should be done tomorrow. I will put the foam topper on in the AM before I leave for PT. That will give it a couple of hours to settle. Ideally, it needs twenty-four hours but I’, going to give it 12 or so.
Tomorrow is supposed to rain and be icy. I got to be careful while I’m out. I don’t want to slip and get another concussion. Taylor Swift is coming out with a new old album called Fearless (Taylor’s version). Not sure if she is going to do all of her albums. The new version is to have 26 songs, 10 not released before. I can’t wait.
I’m so depressed. SO sick of being in pain. Therapist is going to buy managing chronic pain so we can do the exercises together. I told her CRPS is a brain disorder as well as a neuro one so now she thinks it’s important to do the skills and shit. I am so tired. Pain kept me up again last night. Left shoulder kept hurting and then my right arm would fall asleep. I really couldn’t get comfy last night. I did take BT meds and Zanaflex. It’s all that I could do.
I really hope I can go to PT tomorrow. I really want some more of the dry needling so I hurt less. It all depends on how icy it is. I hope I don’t have to change it to a virtual appointment because that will suck. I really need a massage to feel better.
I am in the fence about taking a nap before going to bed. I am just so tired because I took some Zanaflex and it is making me drowsy. I am in a fuck it mood so just been taking whatever to try and ease this pain in my neck and leg. There is supposed to be a storm tonight/tomorrow so I know that is why I am hurting. I fucking hate storms. They always make my pain worse.
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Hugs. You sound so low. I feel sad and like I wish I could help you more. Sometimes words aren’t enough. xo