Tag: COVID19

Coronavirus sucks!

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, Chronic pain, chronic physical pain, CRPS, depression, mood disorders

Coronavirus sucks!

I saw my cousin today. She gave me a rollator walker and I gave her some eye drops. It was so good seeing her but so hard not to give her a hug! We socially distanced and wore masks. We made sure to do so because we didn’t want to infect one another in case one of us got it. This virus sucks! I hate it. I miss my cousins so much.

I didn’t go to partial today. I needed to sleep because I was up all night again after I had to pee around 0130. It took me several hours to get back to sleep. I wasn’t in pain I just couldn’t sleep. My mind kept wandering. I felt like blogging but knew if I got on the laptop I would be up all night. Luckily I was asleep by 4. I had already emailed the coordinator of the program I wouldn’t be in today. I got an email from one of them about LGBTQ friendly therapists. I am thinking of changing therapists. I don’t think the therapist I am seeing is right for me anymore. She is good but too good for me. I don’t think I can stand her being such a pusher for DBT.

Yesterday was quite the circus when I had therapy. My sister said I couldn’t use her bedroom so I was in her kitchen which was little to no privacy. I couldn’t talk about what I wanted to talk about so we talked about the Sox for a bit. It was a little chaotic trying to talk to her as my sister was coordinating a move of furniture and she was ordering me to do stuff. It was not how I planned therapy. I almost cried I was so distraught.

I’ve been deeply depressed for most of the day today. I just have been in pain with my shoulders. My right shoulder is now having pain. I hope PT can do both of them but I am not sure. I am going to give dry needling a try. It is supposed to be uncomfortable but from what I read in the material the PT gave me is the best option for my condition. It might be faster than regular therapy. I just know it sucks being in pain every day with this.

I have a zoom call with my cousins tonight. Should be fun. I always enjoy talking with them. These are my cousins from my father’s side of the family. There are about 9 of us total so it is a good group. I love and miss them so much. I can’t wait till covid is done with so we can meet in person again. It really sucks not seeing family members. I am lucky that I live with my mother and I know others can’t see their parents right now. I feel for them. I really do. Right now my older friend has covid. He is asymptomatic as far as I have been told. But that means I can’t see him right now until after this pandemic is done with. It’s too dangerous to see friends, especially with this new variant going around that is supposed to be more contagious than the main virus. I want to get vaccinated but no place around me has yet to provide the vaccine. I am still waiting.

covid strikes again

by Midnight Demon, posted in blogging, Chronic pain, chronic physical pain, CRPS, depression, mood disorders

Covid strikes again

My mother has been ill the past few weeks. Last night she took a fall around 3 am and was very sore this morning. She had a doctor’s appointment but didn’t want to go because she couldn’t walk. My sister told her we would take her to the emergency room. In the end, we called an ambulance as she didn’t want to go down the stairs. She was feeling too awful. They tested her at the hospital as her O2 sats were low and she tested positive for Covid. I got tested today so should have it back in a day or two. My mother is hospitalized because of her oxygen levels and because of a biomarker for her heart that is indicating heart problems. She has stress on her heart and they are worried about that. She also has pneumonia and fluid in her lungs. I have been a nervous wreck all day thinking about her.

As I said earlier, I got tested. It was fairly quick at the center I went to. I was glad because I didn’t have to wait too long. I called my PCP’s office to tell them what is going on as I have an appointment next week to get my shoulder looked at. It has been bothering me for weeks now and is not getting better. The tension in my neck and shoulders is quite painful. I might have to have a virtual visit but then they offered me an appointment to see someone in the Covid section of the hospital so I might do that. I don’t know what to do. I said I would call tomorrow when my test results come back. Tomorrow is my birthday. I hope it will be negative but I have been around my mother all this time without a mask on so we’ll see. I feel okay. I don’t have symptoms. I have been tired but it is my usual tired.

I am still in the partial program. I had today off because I thought I would be watching my mother as she had a doctor’s appointment that I was going to go with her to. But turns out I just worried about her from home. Tomorrow I will be going back to the program. It will be my birthday and the first time that my mother will be in the hospital. I told my sisters we can celebrate it when she is home.

I just talked to my mother. She sounded tired and the nurse said she needs her rest so my sister is calling everyone. I talked with her for a little bit. I am glad. I was so worried. She is in a room now and soon she will have dinner. I hope she eats something.