Saturday Blog 28112020

Saturday Blog 28112020

I woke up and went to the bathroom. I didn’t brush my teeth because my sister was bitching about needing to shower. She couldn’t wait and I didn’t want to hear her so I will brush later. Maybe she will go out and I don’t have to hear her today. I came back to my room and my foot exploded. I am in a 10 out of 10 pain right now, 10 being the worst. I didn’t do anything but climb the stairs back to my room. I might have twisted it a little as there was stuff on the damn stairs to be brought upstairs. I don’t know. All I know is that I am hurting and I won’t be able to pick up my prescription today.

The concert last night was so fucking awesome. I don’t think I stopped smiling until I fell asleep a half hour before it ended, around 2130. I couldn’t help falling asleep. I was so relaxed. I slept through the night for the first time in forever. Encore is tonight so I will hear what I missed. Hopefully I won’t fall asleep again! I really enjoyed myself. I don’t think I ever enjoyed a concert so much. I knew all the songs except one and it is an album I don’t hear very often. The chat that went on was very cool. If a song was playing that no one knew there was some people that responded with the name of the song. It was so fucking awesome hearing her play her music.

I won’t be able to get groceries this month. I will just get my drinks and maybe something else but that is all. I will have to go to the grocery store to get what I need. I don’t really need anything except for the drinks. I am running low.

I need to shower today. If the bitch sister is out, I might shave as well. Depends how the foot pain goes. I really need to shave. But if I can’t, a shower is more important. I just want to go back to sleep. I am so tired and I just woke up. I hate when you feel tired when you wake up. I need coffee. I have been switching it up, drinking between Newman’s Own, Starbucks breakfast blend and Pike. I have been drinking solely coffee since I don’t go to Starbucks anymore for my espresso. I miss having my espresso drinks.

I want to watch Mandalorian today. I hear baby Yoda is more adorable than ever. I’ve seen the new memes and he is so fucking cute. I also want to watch the Taylor Swift documentary on her latest album. I got to be in the mood to watch shows or I just don’t watch. I am paying for the service but I don’t watch all the time. I get bored easily.

I just sent my therapist a letter about something that is bothering me the last time we met. She said that my management of my crisis is the wrong answer. I don’t know what the “right” answer is so we need to talk about this because it is really pissing me off. I am still here during my darkest nights so I think that says something. Most importantly, I don’t attempt when I feel so bad.

I am getting hungry. I want to make scrambled eggs with cheese and put hot sauce on it. Frank’s came out with a chili lime that I love. My nephew likes it too. He is the king of hot sauce stuff. He buys different ones to try. Think I will get him some from Amazon for Christmas. He will love it. He loves habanero sauces. I do, too.