a Cold at Christmas time sucks!!

Today was another awful day. I forced myself out of the house to get my license renewed and nearly collapsed in exhaustion when I came home. I hardly ate anything today. I just ordered Chinese and didn’t even eat a small portion of it. I just have no appetite even though I have been thinking about food all day. I still am coughing and wheezing. I feel so drained. I am congested and I just feel awful.

Tomorrow is Christmas and I don’t think I will join in the festivities. I haven’t even wrapped my gifts or finished my shopping. I guess it will have to wait till I am feeling better. I don’t care. This cold has forced me to think about things. Yet not to think about them at all. Am I being selfish because I have not done anything? I don’t know. I just want to stay in bed where it is nice and warm and I don’t have to deal with anyone.

I am losing the sense of smell. My tastebuds have already flown the coop as my dinner didn’t taste as good as I thought it would.

I am pissed off at Walgreens for not filling my prescription because they need to have it clarified by my doctor. I don’t understand it. It says take as directed. How can that be misunderstood?? My doctor has told me how to take it so why is there a problem?? And it’s Christmas which means I most likely will run out of my script as the new one can’t be filled yet. I am so mad and when I went to voice my disgust with my mother I lost my voice because she couldn’t hear me because of my raspy voice. Nothing like trying to talk sense to a deaf person when you are ill. I hope they get this straightened out soon because I need my meds. I will fight with this stupid pharmacist if I have to.  She is a good person but I hate that she has to verify every prescription she gets!! That just takes too damn long in my book!!

I just realized I have not written anything in my journal in over a week now. And there are only six more days left in the year. I guess I will start a new journal sooner rather than later. I just haven’t had the energy of writing a blog and then writing a personal journal entry. It’s taken a lot of energy just for me to write this much.

I was supposed to go over my Aunt’s house but I never do on Christmas Eve. I have always done my own thing. Or I have worked. This is the first Christmas that I am not working. I got asked today what my job is and I told them I was disabled. How depressing.

Don’t know if I told you about my neuro opthalmalogist appt went. They still don’t know what is causing my eye changes. I still have to get new glasses as it was recommended that a new progressive lenses might help. I had to return my other ones as I could not see out of them at all, or I could for a little while and then all went blurry. I hated them. I have worn glasses since the first grade but these I absolutely could not stand. I liked the frame and all but there was just something wrong with the lenses. So my Christmas gift to me is to buy some new glasses. Course I will only go shopping if I am feeling better!!  This cold sucks!!

why the stigma in preventing suicide?

People always scramble when there is lightening but not for suicide prevention. Lightening takes less lives each year than suicide does. I think people don’t scramble because there still is this stigma that it won’t happen. People don’t want to acknowledge that suicide exists and if it doesn’t exist, why prevent it? The stigma is that you run into the old “every man has a choice”. People believe that suicidal people are just going to do it anyway so why bother preventing the inevitable. It happens to those that see it in the ER. Most people cannot fathom why someone would want to take their own life. They think life is so grand that nobody would want to take it. They believe in this bubble that if it doesn’t happen to me, it doesn’t happen at all. I have a cousin who thinks this way. She thinks that if she doesn’t pay attention to the bad stuff, maybe it won’t happen as often. She just wants to be happy all the time. There is nothing wrong with that but not acknowledging serious mental illness is a problem. They have to believe that there is always good things in their world for their sanity. Thomas Joiner, a psychologist that deals with suicidality believes that most suicide prevention would cost less if people actually believed it exists. In his book why people die by suicide, he proposes the risk of a bicyclist getting hit by a car over the prevention barrier of the SF bridge. More people die by suicide (30 per year) than someone dying by getting hit while riding a bicycle.

I think I understand why people are afraid. They still have it in their mind that suicide should not be talked about. If it is talked about then it is real. And if it is real, then something should be done to prevent it.  Unfortunately, not enough people think that suicide is real despite it climbing and it being in the top 10th percentile in the U.S.

CBASP Cognitive Behavioral Analysis System of Psychotherapy

J. McCullough’s article in the Journal of Psychotherapy, “Treatment for Chronic Depression:  Cognitive Behavioral Analysis System of Psychotherapy”, (CBASP; McCullough, 2003) is divided into three sections.  The first section talks about the psychopathology of depression and breaks down how to define whether the patient has early-onset or late-onset depression.  The next part discusses the methodology of treating the patient with CBASP.  The third part details the summary of data used in the article.

McCullough uses Piaget’s pre-operational thinking to characterize the primary, structural, cognitive-emotional problems that he believes maintain chronic depression.  His belief is that chronically depressed adults somehow enter therapy thinking and emoting at the level of four to six-year-old pre-op children (p245).  He also states that chronically depressed patients are perceptually trapped in the present moment and are unable to step back and view social, interpersonal events as an objective observer.  Because of their inability to use formal, operational thoughts, the patients get caught in their own structural and intractable worldview (p245).  They are also powerless to understand the reasons why others react to them in negative ways.  Self-statements made by such patients can be summed up in the words of one who said, “The world is the way it is because I believe it.  I also believe that people will always hurt and reject me.”  Logical disagreement and reality-testing techniques are rarely successful.

McCullough states that there are many parallels between the chronic patient and the pre-op children (p.245).  He uses the examples of a child clinging to the idea that thunder is caused by a heavenly game of bowling despite the parent’s logical explanation of a sudden disturbance of air by an electrical discharge (p.246).  Therapists might challenge patients’ negative thinking by pointing out the positive things for him/her, but they still feel they are ultimately being rejected by accusing the therapist of having been “trained to be nice”, or that the therapist might like them now, but that is because they don’t know they well enough yet.  The patient does not think logically; therefore, logical challenge is not successful.

In order to begin successful treatment, psychotherapy begins with an adult child who must be assisted to mature development in the cognitive-emotive sphere.  Using Piaget’s theory of cognitive-affective development provides the etiological sources that define early-onset and late-onset types of depression: one source involves infants and children (early-onset) and the other involves adults (late-onset; p249).

The chronically depressed patient feels powerless to accomplish anything, lives in an environment that doesn’t influence what s/he does, generating empathy with others beyond his/her capacity, and that s/he has no existential future as it was in the past and the future is much of the same (p252-253).

CBASP is designed to address these problems by relying on predominant administration of negative reinforcement.  Therapists keep exposing patients to the consequences of their behavior at every turn.  The purpose of this is to change the patients’ behavior in a positive direction when their discomfort/distress is diminished.

The techniques of CBASP are Situational Analysis (SA), Interpersonal Discrimination Exercise (IDE) and Behavioral Skills Training and Rehearsal (BST/R).  Each session is broken down to 75% of the time (45 min) administering SA, 15% of the time conducting IDE (9 min), and 6 min spent in direct BST/R.

SA is a technique that is essentially a mismatching exercise.  By using a problematic interpersonal event and focusing on a piece of interpersonal time that has a beginning, middle, ending, and a personal interpretation of the story in between.         Instead of talking about their problems in a global manner, patients are now required to focus attention on a specific problem and are prohibited from talk about problems in general.  This enables a fertile generalization and transfer of learning potential –one SA exercise easily generalizes to numerous interpersonal events.

There are specific consequences of behavior in SA: an endpoint of the situation called an actual outcome, (AO) and the desired outcome for the same event.  After pinpointing what the AO of the interpersonal event was, they are asked to construct a DO of what they liked to have happened.  This usually demonstrates behavioral consequences and ends up causing distress.  As the discrepancy between AO and DO increase discomfort, the first phase of the SA exercise makes negative reinforcement possible.  The distress is often relieved during the end phase of SA when the situation is “fixed” and the patients learn what they must do to produce DO (p. 255).  By repeating the SA, the patient practices with formal operational thought by considering possibilities if they behaved differently.

There are two phases of SA: elicitation and remediation.  These phases are combined in a series of questions that the clinician asks the patient.  The questions pertain to describing the event in detail, thought/feelings about the incident, how the situation turned out, etc.    McCullough points out that these cognitive interpretations in CBASP serves as a descriptor of what is taking place in the situational event.   Thus, cognitive interpretations are never disengaged from the AO or the DO and are discussed independently.  He further states that this approach to cognitive pathology represents one difference between CBASP and Beckian Cognitive Therapy (p. 255-256).

IDE is based on the disciplined personal involvement of therapist with their client and is designed to correct the person’s misconceptions of the clinician.  This is done during session two, during which the clinician obtains the significant other history.  This is a list of persons who have had a determining and influential impact on the course of the patient’s life.  Each of these people is then described in terms of how he/she caused the individual to be the kind of person he/she is. The causal effect may be positive or negative.  Although patients do not think causally, the significant other history is the first time CBASP patients are required to think (in a mismatching way) in an “if this/then that” manner.  Some patients find it difficult to complete the exercise and thus fail to make the connection.  When the exercise is completed successfully, the therapist has an easier time generating causal theory conclusions about each significant other.  These conclusions are descriptive statements concerning how these people influenced the patient’s life (p. 257).  Once these conclusions are made, new interpersonal realities can develop.  This development can override the patients constant thought of always being hurt and rejected and strengthen the closeness of the therapeutic relationship.  This can then mitigate early damage that was inflicted on the patient by the significant other (p258).

In the BST/R, patients are motivated to modify their behavior when they are aware their behavior has consequences.  Once they realize that these consequences end their entrapment in there chronic depressive disorder, motivation to change is potentiated.  Through individually tailoring of the patient’s social skill training, rehearsal, and practice, chronically depressed patients exits the CBASP program to manage the situational challenge they encounter daily.

The study that was conducted to compare the efficacy of medication and CBASP was the largest study ever conducted in psychology and psychiatry.  Six-hundred-eighty-one chronically depressed patients were enrolled at 12 research sites throughout the United States.  They were randomly assigned 12 weeks of nefazodone (Serzone), CBASP, or a combination of both.  Patients were to have a score of 20 on the Hamilton Depression Scale for Depression (HDSD-24) to indicate depression.  Remission was defined as a score of 8 or lower at week 10 and 12.  All patients presented with a current episode of major depression that lasted on average of 7.8 yrs.  Those subjects diagnosed with antecedent dysthymia revealed an average history of dysthymia of 23 years.

The overall response rate was 48% for the monotherapy cells and 73% for combined therapy.  All subjects were included regardless if the acute phase was completed.  The results showed that combination therapy for chronic depression provides meaningful clinical advantage (p.260).  It also supports previous recommendations for using both psychotherapy and medication to treat chronically depressed patients.

Criticism:

            This article on a personal level was intensely difficult to get through.  I do not agree with most of what the author was saying about the pathology of depressed individuals and I certainly don’t agree that the depressed patient is responsible for their depression.  Once you get past his interpretation of the psychopathology, the methods of treatment were easier to digest and take in objectively.  I was disappointed that the study was so short in this article.  The description of CBASP took almost twenty pages, while the study was a half a page.  Overall, the article is promising in the treatment of chronic depression.  He also gives a very detailed account of how the session is timed, which leaves no room for talking about anything other than the situational event and provides greater attention to interpreting the precise event rather than the emotional one.

 

 

McCullough, J. (2003). Treatment for chronic depression: Cognitive behavioral analysis system of psychotherapy (cbasp). Journal of Psychotherapy Integration, 13(3/4), 241-263.

 

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validation and connectedness

val·i·date

/ˈvæl ɪˌdeɪt/ Show Spelled [val-i-deyt] Show IPA

verb (used with object), val·i·dat·ed, val·i·dat·ing.

1. to make valid; substantiate; confirm: Time validated our suspicions.

2.to give legal force to; legalize.

3.to give official sanction, confirmation, or approval to, as elected officials, election procedures, documents, etc.: to validate a passport.   

Taken from dictionary.com

 

This is the long version of what it means to be validated. That is what every suicidal person wants. To have that understanding and human connectedness of being validated, that they are not crazy or being patronized but what they are feeling. Without this essential human feeling, we feel we are being criticized and judged no matter how much sympathy or empathy is shown.

I recently posted a couple of vents about mental illness on my blog. I was looking for validation in what I was saying. And someone, a good friend of mine, gave me that, because she feels the same way I do about how damned the mentally ill can feel. To be validated in this sense is that she understood where I was coming from. She didn’t horseshit around the topic to try and make me feel better. She went on her own tyrant of feelings about the subject and that made me feel better.

But the best comment I got today was from a fellow blogger who thanked me for continuing to live because it gave him or her hope to do the same. That is why I write this blog. That is why I try to make this blog as painful as I feel it because I know someone out there is going to read it and feel the same way. And in that sense, he or she will hopefully feel connected to the world and want to stay in it long enough to do whatever.